okay i finally think i am able to recap the past few days. it took me a while to filter everything through and distill what i could gain from them. so i will leave here what was notable. thursday: i was in a fit of rage. the chicago mishap, the lj debaucal and general disappointment in the males of the species had me ready to kill. i think thursday sparked my newfound disrespect for boys. friday:first thing is, i bought a car. a ford focus. i pick it up tuesday. then me and E went out in northwest indiana. the first bar we went to was totally bizarre. we walk up to it, there's a guy so drunk, hes laying on the sidewalk. down a ways theres two groups of people screaming at each other from their cars, a fight brewing. why we decided to go in, i dont know but we did. it was such a meatmarket, there was about a 70/30 split of guys to girls. it reminded me of the one frat party i went to in college. there were girls with hair dyed so blond it glowed unded the blacklight. there wasn't really anything to do but watch and wonder two things :why didn't i think this was fun? and how can these people think this is fun? it was like some sort of cultural divide, and everyone's fashion was terrible. so me and E devised a game to play. we would walk up to people then tell them, "my friend likes you", and see what happens. that was fun for a while, but then we decided to go somewhere else. onto the next bar, i walk in and i see my two best friends in high school beth and beth. we got into a fight our senior year and i hadn't talked to them since. i was so freaked i just turned around to walk out, but they saw me, and came over and we talked, and it was cool. all is forgiven and i was really happy to have seen them and to have made amends. we plan to go out sometime together in the near future. saturday:made plans to go to indianapolis. make plans with my old roommate sarah and new friend josh to meet up and hang out. heather calls at 10 am saying she has food poisoning and can't go. i still haven't decided if she did have food poisoning or just decided to stay to see the boy shes crushing on's band play. i'd bet money on the latter. anyway, i freak, but luckily i get to go anyway cause my mom lends me the car. so i get down there. at first i get lost. then i find where i want to be, call josh, and plan to meet him in an hour. meet him, we decide to got to the art museum, get there and then he tells me he feels sick and needs to go home. i didn't know what else to say but okay, so then i get dropped off near my car and call sarah. i dont trust what people tell me anymore, so he could have really been sick or maybe it was me. so anyway, go to sarahs parents. i was so happy to see her. we walked around broad ripple which i had ever been to before and that was nice. i drank a vodka and cranberry juice in some bar that was open on the street and sat and watched the people. it was cool. then we went to get tara. tara knew a girl with VIP passes to world mardi gras, so we went there. i felt pretty cool VIPing it into the bar, bypassing the line and getting cool comp stuff. that's why sarah and i took pictures with our passes. so we get in there, its wild. its a huge bar made up of 4 theme bars. we hung out in this jungle looking room that played bootymusic and danced it up. it was hot and sweaty and rauchy. i think it is amazing what guys think they can get away with on a dance floor. like, i'd be minding my own business then there would be some guy grinding up on my ass, or grabbing my waist or whatever. and none of them were even cute. at all. but i had fun danceing with sarah and tara. tara is fun to dance with especially, cause she is very uninhibited. so we had our girlongirl dancing moments. it funny we were talking about club dancing and conclude dancing is just simulated sex in that environment, its going through all the motions of sex just with your clothes on. so i sweated and writhed and got my freak on and went to bed alone. sunday:drove back home from indy. woke up with the most terrible blisters on my feet ever, they're still killing me. too much dancing at world mardi gras i guess. that and i borrowed taras shoes. the drive back was really nice, the weather was perfect for driving and there wasn't really a lot of traffic at all. i was having such a good time just singing in the car along with the radio as loud as i could. got home, wishing i could have stayed longer.